Bricks
I stood face to face with the brick wall, my eyes fixated on one single point in front of me, dangling tantalizingly, slightly above my forehead. My feet stood planted and spread as if in competition, as in a challenge. The small indention in the murky red stood unyielding, and I wondered vaguely if it was not meant to challenge me, but if it could help me. Fix me. If there was some magnetic pull between my forehead and the bricks, would I be able to pull back enough times to rid me of thought, of consciousness?
But my feet stayed planted, and I was so close, the grains
The Cab Driver
Couldnt have shown his pride
Any more than he already was,
Knit hat in
The colors of his flag:
Yellow, green, and red,
With a few dreadlocks
Still hanging
From his other wise balding head.
His domain
(of which he was sill the captain)
Had a sign on the back seat that read
Say No to Illegal Drugs
Dont Judge a Book by Its Cover
Another sign on the side told
The drivers name was
Kofi
Which I thought could be pronounced
Coffee
Which was the color of his skin.
The sounds of some dread-ridden singer
Bounced off the sides of the car,
Is this singer from your cou
Feet pounding a steady,
Relentless beat on cold pavement.
One foot here.
No,
Wait,
Here.
Be careful not to break a back
Your mother's or otherwise,
But you don't care.
Because conscience only exists in one's mind.
Prayers of safety and
Spiritual relief are lost in the constant pounding since
God only exists in the headphones
Slung around your head
Where the music is,
And karma only exits
In the little brown bowl at the station
That says one cent for good luck.
So you'll try it.
And continue beating on
Until the only thing that matters
Is the rhythm on the sidewalk
Because that's where you exist,
Where you belong.
In
You know, being famous isn't easy.
People always have these expectations.
It's like when you meet some fan at a high-end party.
"Oh, hello there
Have we met before?"
And they've got a slight scent of alcohol surrounding them
And they stick out their hand
And grab yours and stare at you like your God
"So you're familiar with my work
…well, I'm glad you like it so much"
But then God wouldn't really be like me.
I'm sure God has better things to do with his time
Than pursue idiotic dreams of grandeur and fame
While he's trying to save the world from the evil
Like me.
"Inspiration? You say.
Well, I've got my fair share of inspir
Hello
Let me introduce myself
I am the public enemy
Screw up number one
I am the one you see
Sitting on the street corner
With only his backpack to keep him company
Just trying to beg for another drink
I am your daughter
Who has defied your standards
And given herself over to whimsical fantasies
Interrupted by a crying child
I am your son who you wait on
While he is with his friend after school
Exploring him with his lips
I am the starving artist
Trying to make a living
Through visions that the typical
Corporate American
Cannot understand
I am the girl in the back row
With her head smashed between headphones
Suffering
Some people tell me I'm kind of like Jesus
Only I'm not Jewish,
I don't perform miracles,
And I sure as hell ain't righteous.
But they tell me I'm kind of like Jesus
Because we were both betrayed by a kiss.
Shakespeare wrote and told me once
That a rose by any other name
Would smell as sweet,
But Ms. Stein said
A Rose is a Rose is a Rose.
Dorothy Parker favored limousines instead.
Kindergarten children 'round the world
Proclaim that Roses are Red and
Violets are Blue.
Perhaps Blue is a better color.
They tell me sugar is sweet too,
But I'm not so sure.
Little girls certainly aren't
(And aren't they made of sugar?)
And Jesus might have said that children are innocent,
But perhaps my sister belongs to the devil.
Dickinson enlightened me
Giving easy lightening to the children
With kind explanation of dazzling truth,
To prevent
Angels in perfect formation
Arranged like a symphony
Breastplates of iron (and righteousness)
With wings that sound of chariots
(Like a million horses rushing into battle)
A battle cry of the Hallelujah chorus
Sung twice for good measure
With swords raised over their heads
A goal to sever a head or two
(The beast had too many anyway)
In an appeal for aid
The whore of Babylon wrote once
To ask how I was
I said I wasn't sure
But it was nice to hear from her
United as one
Detached in battle
The sword of truth wounding with every
Powerful word spoken from the mouths of babes
Slaughtered by the uninnocent
Victory hanging over
Prometheus sent me a box of chocolates
With a liver inside
(A Caucasusian delicacy)
I fed it to my dog
And walked up the stairs that never end
To the front porch swings
Where broken Lies
Puncture healthy lungs
And I find it hard to breathe
With invisible features ripping out my eyes
Stealing them away from me
You were always a bit possessive
But they told me not to play with fire
And now I know why Prometheus pities me.
"Omniscient Portrait"
The pictures that line the wall
Stare out at me through agéd eyes
As I wait, listening for someone to find me
They're decorated in dust
From years of soundless pain
And imaginary grins on their faces
And as I explore this tiny room
I come to face each one
A mere silhouette of the people
They once were
With stares that will hold me here
For eternity if I should let them
They never say a word
But I can hear their muted screams
The screams long forgotten by this age
They only wish to warn us
To move their framéd hands
Into ours and whisper the secrets of hell
Hell-and life
But here they sit in their sil
"I know"
I know that Good doesn't always win
But Love will ultimately triumph;
God carries burdens
And my burden is heavy
I know that emotions are cruel
And Love can die;
Lust is man's worst enemy,
His aide in all crimes
I know that faith is a struggle
Chosen by many
Though few achieve success
In this essential art
I know that where there's a will there's a way
The way may not be clear
The way not straight
Nor the journey easy
I know that silence is ambiguous
It's meaning unclear
Like a foreign language
In an alien world
I know that parting is hard
And when realization hits
You can't let go
Until they let go of you
I
"Man's Defeat"
Beating hearts,
In broken tombs.
Bleeding babes,
In open wombs.
In the beginning,
Men may fall.
And in the end,
On knees they crawl.
The darkness creeps,
The path unworn.
To see these mortals,
Hopelessly torn.
An unquenched thirst,
I cannot subside.
Then all men weep,
Before they die.
The strongest man
Cannot withhold,
This bloody tale
Left untold.
Beating hearts,
In broken tombs.
Bleeding babes,
In open wombs.
"Façade"
To sit and watch those around me
Those caught in unawares
And it doesn't bother them
They can chat about the horrors of life
Like it was coffee table conversation
But not me
I see through the damn façade
To what really lies behind the exchange
The deadly words that drop from acid tongues
A poison that they don't even know exists
As they continually lash it out
The saliva from their mouths
Burning on my skin
Slowly eating me alive
And I can do nothing to stop it
Without interrupting my own façade
They flaunt their good lives in front of my covetous eyes
As I watch they drown themselves
In their own happiness
Not
"Thorns"
Deeply wounded by the thorns I wear
The thorns that came from a gift
A sweet red rose to symbolize
The undying love that did in fact die
One moment, a blissful second
To see his heart in mine
To see his hands seek mine
To feel his lips teach mine
Tis not the rose that I envy
For death brings naught but eternity
No, it is for that moment I long
The moment I have because of you
Then you gave me my bloody rose
The delicate rose that became painted with my tears
And the thorns that touch it, shall soon conquer
For in eternity I shall suffer
Never knowing the one love I ever had
Never seeing that moment come true
Only s
Come one, come all
To my horrific Freak Show
Come see all the unbelievable sights
You thought you'd only heard of
But now you can come gape at these visions
As much as you may like
As I present them one by one
Like all the children
Who cringe before you with
Haunted eyes
As their hair spills out in clumps
Into their dry, wrinkled hands
And the hands of those older
Whose yellow fingernails fall out
Finger by finger
But I invite you in
It's only a dollar
Isn't a dollar
A fitting fee
To satisfy your morbid curiosity?
And watch as bloated bellies
And lame limbs
Are paraded before
The masochist's covetous eyes
To the de
"The Call"
Be not thou damned
From light eternal
To see from these
Inner gates unhinged
To make from those
That you should destroy
The destiny that Hell beholds
A cry unbeckoned
From unworthy lips
No sense of sorrow
To be brought forth
This cursed world
I shall not attend
But make my home
In Hell's fiery wrath
So come to me
As a lover attends her own
Come and call
On my doorstep, here
Choose your fate
Within my hands behold
Your wringing grasp
Pulling at the skin
That envelops these hands
What shall you choose?
The choice is yours
Make your choice
Quickly
The call beckons
My brave face slowly lets itself down
With a dull ache between my eyes
The tears that have threatened to fall
Ever since that day, long ago
Are pioneering new territory down my cheek
I'm ashamed to be doing thing
I'm supposed to be strong
The damned emotions keep crawling up
As stealthy as a spy behind enemy lines
You don't know he's there until the attack
And you're left feeling weakened
With a violent desperation to fulfill the emptiness
The ache that consumes my body
As sobs wrack my wasted corpse
Poison of dreams spilling from tired lips
Surely one day it'll do its job
And slowly kill the need- the want of what I truly fe
I pledge allegiance to myself
My health, my joy, my rights
I will not pledge to my government
And its corruption
I give my loyalty to only me
And not the brain washed mass
Nor to the media that fills our heads
With the meaningless stories
Propaganda madness ensues
With tainted souls
And I will not side
With the corrupter
The all-knowing executive
That sits in his high backed chair
And smokes away the taxes
From the wallets of the common victims
So unto your cravings
I will not sympathize
To one nation, under power
With oppression and fear for all
The smooth floor on which I sit
Is cold beneath me
And the pure white that surrounds me
Plays with my mind
Constantly bouncing off the back of my eyelids
Like a toy the little child of fate
Would play with in my head
I don't know why brother fate
Feels it needs to toy with me
My sanity is barely intact anyway
The unadulterated light makes me feel unworthy
Like I'm dirty in comparison
A dirty, ungrateful toy
Entertainment for the gods
For meddling in human affairs is how the pass their days
So as I sit on the cold white floor
I think
And I know my existence
Is futile
coversations with God -goodbye by sqoggle, literature
Literature
coversations with God -goodbye
I phoned God to ask him to stop the clock at 11:59 pm
So I could put a hold on tomorrow, at least for a few days
So I could put off saying goodbye to you.
God has become an automated service
A franchised McReligious service
'Thankyou for calling God's hotline', the generic, exploited voiceover said.
'For sin confession press six six six,
to admit to adultery press six nine,
to support God's program to lower the divorce rate, press seven,
for born again Christians, press feeling alive five,
to remind yourself of the ten commandments press one zero,
and for all other queries, please hold the line,
God or one of his representatives
Aria of Tainted Chiffon by Corsairette, literature
Literature
Aria of Tainted Chiffon
~Aria of Tainted Chiffon~
Aria was her name, though her song had gone flat
With eyes like coins and a tiny top hat
Driven to madness by her mother's white lies
She forever adopted a clever new guise
Hired, an assassin, by a man called The Ace
She dressed all in ribbons, petticoats, and lace
And through alleys she skipped, photo in hand
Calculating the facets of her grim little plan
The eye of her pistol cries tears of lead
As scarlet haze rises with gasps of the dead
"Damnation!" clatter the shells on cement
And she tilts her head in thoughtful lament
Nightly she tiptoes, down each dusky street
For cups of tea and chocolates swe
Slight Highschool Paranoia... by marianb, literature
Literature
Slight Highschool Paranoia...
"Slight High School Paranoia Justified"
The far west corner, tall and overgrown
with a single concrete path cutting the way
it’s said that among its brush mole-men roam
and on the aerie like steps, the bird-people stay
So here I enter upon the disruptive scene
and although, paranoia is not what I wish
every day, I inch by the orcs and goblins mean
cowering and praying not to be their next dish
By ill luck, the gremlin gave me his evil eye
so I knew that my bright fortunes would fail
but the pain is so painful, enough for a cry
when unicorns stomp you in a garbage pail
I found I’m allergic to fairy dust
and I sneezed
--this is a public service announcement.--
-reality television is
destroying the minds and souls of
my generation.
you dont interact with flesh and blood
any longer,
now you talk on
cell phones to the
person on the other side of the room
in order to vote for
who you want to see
on
MTV
--hear polute the airwaves
with bubble gum from the
bottom
of
my
shoe pop,
while the true artists
starve and play guitar
on street corners
for enough change for
a pack of cigeretts
a pack of smokes
a pack of
cyanide.
And all those 12 year old
scenster kids who rock
their uban outfitter "thrift store" shirts
and write lyrics on their
An atheist martyr, bleeding on the ground,
Died for his love,
Died for himself.
The bullet flew to end the freedom fighter,
To tear through morality,
To spit on conscience.
They fall like dominoes,
Cut down in better judgement,
To further the human race.
At home the people are laughing,
Shells without a purpose,
Rotting in their cages.
London's burning,
The martyr's bleeding
As we writhe in our own apathy.
Hello, all.
So, as you may or may not have noticed, I haven't been posting on here lately. That is not because I haven't been writing, or because I don't like this site. It is simply because I don't really have the need for the site anymore. I now live in a place where I can get instantaneous feedback from an entire writing program. And I couldn't be happier.
I would like to, however, invite whoever would wish to read my blog. The address is amberstewart.wordpress.com.
Love!
I am finally here in NYC, and so far I haven't been disappointed. Granted, classes haven't started yet so that might change a few things. But as of right now I'm totally loving this. The people here are strange yet incredible and I'm meeting a ton of people really quickly. The only thing I'm not liking so much is the weather. The high today was 61 and rainy. While that beats dry and 108, it was a really fast change for me. I'm already wearing my fall clothes, and it's August.
I got my first writing assignment yesterday after we did a critical analysis of the nobel winner's acceptance speech from 2006. Classes haven't even started yet. I'm go
In less than two weeks I am moving to NYC.
The panic is beginning to set in. Mostly because I looked at my closet, and then I looked at the suitcases I need to be able to fit it all in.
I don't know what I'm doing, and I only know a few people (barely).
I'm a little confused about orientation for school, because they apparently don't like to give out specifics.
But, in the end, I am so incredibly excited to be going. Excited to leave and try something new.
But it's a little surreal.
Yeah, just a tad.
I'm sorry I missed it. I was going to come for the exhibition, but something came up. I hope y'all have a great season and I'll probably come see you at Christmas.